Feelings right now

Lot and lot of things make my life getting annoying right now.

Studying? Yes, it is.

Working? Yes,it absolutely is.

Everything? Yes, it totally is.

I have a new friend here, she has a devil-shaped body.

I'm referring to her legs!!!

Totally slim and beautiful!!!

Look at my flabby thighs.

What can I say some more?

I just can keep my jealousy on her slim legs and sigh silently in my heart~

Desperately, I'm trying to keep fit.

I control my every meal even if I felt a bit hungry at night, I only could force myself to fall asleep.

Oh god~when can I be a slim girl just like her??

Wearing skinny jeans...

I really feel depress every time wearing a long, tight, thick jeans to school.

So annoying u know???

I want to diet but time doesn't allow me to do so.

Always study study study.

Final exams are approaching to me, please get away from me=(

So many things need to follow up.

And so many chapters need to catch up by myself because what the lecturers had taught, I still have to soliloquize in my room.

It's my peculiarity=)

Studying from morning till evening, revising at night.

How come I get my extra time ya?

Apart from that, a thing that I wished do not happen on me.

Unfortunately, it finally had come to me.

To my expectation, I knew if my result being revealed, I'm going to encounter disasters in my life.

Goshhhh...

It's so annoying and troublesome!!!

Once again, I really felt annoying recently.

Having skin problem, obesity problem, financial problem and study problems.

All of these always influence my mood.

Besides, I'm going to have my car-driving test!! 
Seeing my friends one by one pass and pass.
I asked my myself, will I??
I don't want to waste my 150 to retake the test lah=(
It's a burden for me actually.
Truly hope all those parking skill, 3-point turn, on-the-road and the climbing session...hehe...don't know what to call that sessionXD 

And, I wish to chase my dream.

A dream to be an artist.

It's true.

I love art.

I love paintings.

I love oil paintings!!

But, look at the fees___________200 a month!!

How could I afford it?

OMG~~

a far dream to me...

Sigh~~

A good way to release my tension for a short while.

My relative told me, actually I have a very good prerequisite to study at others U.

He was so desperately encouraging me to another U to study.

But, it's a far far dream again for me I think.

I have been studying at TARC for 3 months.

I can say I feel good.

Even though I might take more time to complete my studies if compare to others.

But, I have chosen to preserve my time with my family.

Feeling wasted but nothing can do.

I only hope I could maintain my performance till the end.

It's the feedback for my sacrifice not choosing a U.=)

 Do remember I used to have such a smile.

amberlyn how.